Long time no blog....

It has been such a long time since the last time I blogged, I don't even know where to begin. So much has happened since. I got pregnant, had a not so complicated pregnancy (still a little complicated ;)) and a beautiful baby boy, Simon-Nathan (Simon). I completely forgot I had this blog. I can't remember why I stopped updating. 

My little munchkin is 4, almost 5 months old. It's crazy how time flies. Not a day goes by that I don't think of Urijah. I still grieve. Holidays are still hard but more manageable. We still take it one day at a time. It was hard when I first had Simon. The only thing I could think about were all the things I was doing with Simon but never got a chance to with Urijah. I wanted so much for Urijah to be with me but knew I would have never had Simon if he was. It was all so bittersweet. As the months have passed Simon has brought some healing for me. Not that he could ever replace but rather add more love into my life. I was nervous that I wouldn't be able to love Simon as much as Urijah but thankfully it was just nerves. It's amazing how much love the heart can hold. I can now say I have two sons, something I never thought would happen. People always ask if Simon is my first. I always say my first is in heaven and Simon is my second baby. I know I must make them uncomfortable and it would probably be easier just to say, yes he's my first, but I need for Urijah to be remembered. It's hurtful when he's not. 

As I type this at 2:30am, I have a beautiful little stinker sleeping on my chest. Steve and I are blessed to be able to be his parents. He has provided so much laughter, smiles, tears of joy, and love. I would love if we could have 10 more. ;) j/k One more would be awesome.  So, I'm going to attempt to keep up with this blog and report on the adventures of Simon and being his mommy. I thank God every day for that privilege.