March of Dimes

Today the March of Dimes held a breakfast for all of the local supporters and families. I was asked to be a part of a group of families volunteering to share their preemie story. I didn't even hesitate to say yes. I don't know why I didn't hesitate. Most thought I was brave to be sharing my story so soon. All I could think of was how I was excited to share my story. Ever since Urijah's passing, all I've wanted to do is help other families in need. I wanted to let them know they weren't alone.  Even though Steve and I had support, we still felt very much alone because not many people could relate to having a baby in the NICU and if they had one it was only for a few days. I would take a few days in the NICU over 5 weeks.

Steve and I invited my family and his mom to the breakfast. It was nice to have familiar support. We arrived bright and early and sat at the family table. I wasn't really nervous because I knew other people were going to speak. A few moment later I was informed that I was the only parent that showed to share their story. I immediately got butterflies. Not only was I speaking to a room full of professionals I didn't know but I was going to be alone and to top it off they wanted me to start at the back of the room holding a mic and walk my way up to the front of the room while I spoke.  All eyes on me.

Uhhhhhh, you're kidding, right?

Steve, sensing my distress and being the amazing husband that he is, asked if I wanted him to walk with me. I nodded my head yes and he stood with me at the back of the room, all eyes on us. I managed to start slow and steady, hands were shaking some but I was maintaining composure. When it came to Urijah being born and then passing, I was in tears and had several of the audience members crying as well. I managed to get through the entire speech with Steve by my side. It was a bit of an out of body experience.

 I had a few ladies come to me after and give me a hug. Steve and I were also given a gift by the organization for allowing them to share my story. I am so happy I did. What an awesome way to honor out beautiful son. I plan on being a huge support to the organization and will be forming a team to raise money for the March of Dimes. So I may be looking for you in the spring. :)